we pray for a memory and a brain that would remember You first and everyday. we pray for a loving heart that beats in perfect rhythm after Your own. <3 – Psalm 119:11
Tag: joy
9 Weeks: All Cleared
This is Baby Jam’s second picture from the follow-up ultrasound.
Now we can see baby really really active. The arms and legs are moving fast like trying to swim 😀 And yes, the heartbeat is now very visible in the ultrasound screen, beating very fast. I was really amazed that there are already two hearts beating in my body <3Â
And the best news of all is that both the UTI and subchronic hemorrhage  were now cleared! God is good. 🙂
7 Weeks: Love at First Sight
This is Baby Jam’s very first picture, his/her first ultrasound.
I could hardly believe that there’s that cute little one inside my body. It felt overwhelming and surreal 🙂 I was joking Hubby that he/she looks like me!
Of course, at that time we can only see the soon-to-be fetus. But it was sort of a relief to actually see baby, confirming the pregnancy test that we did (and I was not just “inventing” the morning sickness” and bugging Hubby to do things for me).
That same day during my OB visit, there are two concerns that we have to address.First is my unusually high infection found out through urinalysis (UTI). And the second one is subchronic hemorrhage, wherein very small amount of blood is just outside baby. It MIGHT be an indicator that baby is not holding on strong, but I was told not to worry because it can also be a completing physiological process. So I was given prescriptions for both and has to do follow-up tests a week after. The UTI is sonthing to watch out for, as I was told it is really really bad for baby and even caused miscarriages for some women. I have to drink 2-3L of water from that day on!
That day, I asked few people close to us to continuously pray for baby’s strong heartbeat and development and growth. This is a start of a journey that I will take not just with Hubby, but more importantly with God.
Bestest Birthday Gift Ever!
Before God’s plans unfolded before our eyes, I felt like Abraham’s Sarah who was barren.
No, not that I was already really having infertility problems. But in this age and time when almost all of my batchmates are on their 2nd or 3rd child, or hearing miscarriages here and there of women my age–i  felt an “easy-getting-pregnant” experience for me is not possible.
Throughout the doubt and fear, it was God’s grace that led us. I held on to God’s promise, that I know in my heart is His own promise to me:
She became pregnant, and she gave birth to a son for Abraham in his old age. This happened at just the time God had said it would. – Genesis 21:2Â NLT
And we kept still. I am blessed because Hubby believes and has faith in God (and I guess even much more than I do!). We did not rush.
As you promised God, on your own time.
And yes, God is faithful. It’s actually an understatement. If He promised something, He will stick to it. It will really happen. And He knows how to make a surprise, too. God’s timing is perfect.
I decided to take pregnancy test one morning I was feeling nauseous. At the back of my mind, I feared of getting disappointed (and Hubby too). But I told you, we were strongly holding on to God’s promise.
That day was September 12, 2016. Three days before Hubby’s birthday and five days before mine, we got the best birthday gift ever.
The test came out positive–strong and vivid positive.
All just because God loves us that much!
I couldn’t say anything more. I am just excited for this little one that He gave us <3