Johan

Spotting and Worrying

We were attending Chiqui Brosas’ Birth Classes for the whole month of Feb (I’ll post about this separately), and last Sunday was supposedly our last class. We are actually looking forward to it because the topics that session are post-partum and newborn care. I even “organized” the ordering of one of the food deliveries for our potluck.

That morning though, when we are about to prepare to go to the class, I have “blood red” spotting after I went to the restroom. I immediately panicked, but calmly showed it to Hubby (so he will not panic as well!). We were both not saying aloud anything, but deep inside we KNOW the different possibilities. We just agreed that I inform my OB via Viber and ask what to do. I guess the downside of knowing a lot is that we also know a lot more reasons to worry.

OB advised to immediately go to the hospital and have it checked. To get my mind off worry for a while, I first arranged the changes in the food delivery for our class and informed them that we won’t be able to join that day.

And yes, we were praying above all that Johan is fine.

When we arrived at the OB Complex of St. Luke’s BGC, I was immediately attended to. A fetal monitor was attached to me to monitor baby’s heartbeat as well as my contractions. I was also asked to pee for urinalysis. They also called my OB, and was checked by the resident doctor.

After couple of hours observation, we were relieved to know that everything is fine. The IE also indicated that my cervix is not dilated. Looks like an infection in the urinary tract.

After a while, we were discharged but has to go through medication for the infection. All is well now for me and baby.

It was actually a scare for me. As much as we wanted to see him (soon), baby can’t go out yet at 29 weeks.

While attached to the fetal monitor (and I cant move because it would be interprested as contraction), I asked God to talk to me. I checked my phone, and of course He did. The daily bible passage feed in my phone is exactly the bible verse posted here in this blog and my favorite for my pregnancy with Johan.

Psalm 139:13-16

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Next time there’s a temptation to worry, I should remind myself that God is control and Johan is God’s baby first and foremost.

Baby Johan is most secure in His love. 🙂

Daddy's Corner · Johan

Daddy’s Song: When I Pray for You

Dearest Baby Johan,

This morning, your Daddy is a bit emotional about something (yes, he is more ma-emo than Mommy, fyi). He came across a song, and this is a song for you, Baby. Because we know you always feel the love especially when we are praying for you.

We are already looking forward to see you. For the meantime, enjoy your time there. Daddy can’t wait to talk to you exclusively! But for now, you and I have exclusive quality time (sorry for the Cloud trainings you attended with me–too early for you but Mommy needs to learn it).

For now, Daddy can’t talk to you without me knowing everything he whispers to you! 🙂

<3

“When I Pray For You”

I talk to God about you
And I ain’t even met you yet
Everybody’s waitin’ on you here
I can’t wait to feel your heart beat
When I lay you on my chest

I’m already holding back my tears
I wanna be the dad that my dad was
I hope that I don’t mess this whole thing up

I pray you love like your momma
And you forgive just like she does
And when this life knocks you down
I hope you get down on your knees
Cause that’s what I do, that’s what I do
When I pray for you
Oh, and I pray for you

I know you’re gonna grow up some day
But don’t forget to take your time
And take the time to call back home

It ain’t always gonna be easy
It ain’t always gonna be fair
I know you ain’t always gonna need me
But I promise that I’ll always be there

I pray you love like your momma
And you forgive just like she does
And when this life knocks you down
I hope you get down on your knees
Cause that’s what I do, that’s what I do
When I pray for you
Oh, and I pray for you

I talk to God about you
When everything around me breaks
I look up and hear him say

Love like your momma
And forgive just like she does
And when this life knocks you down
I hope you get down on your knees
Cause that’s what I do, that’s what I do
When I pray for you
When I pray for you
When I pray for you

Flight2J4816 · Johan@0

Valentine’s Day 2017

Dearest Baby Johan,

This year’s Valentines Day is a lot more special than any of the ones I ever had, because:

1. This is your Daddy and Mommy’s first Valentine’s as married couple, and your Daddy is still sweet enough to bring home roses (and KFC dinner) for me;

2. And most of all, because I have 2 hearts now beating inside me–mine and that little amazing heart of yours.

Happy Love Day, my Baby! I know your heart is created after God’s own heart, and every heartbeat we hear from the outside is His love echoing through you. The love is just overflowing! <3

 

Flight2J4816

Love You, All The More

With Baby Johan on the way, I realized all the more how I love you.

It’s like 100x than the love I absorbed when you proposed to me. I’m amazed how our little one could magnify the love I knew you have for me.

How God chose you for me, I have no idea. But sure did He chose the perfect partner for me. I cannot imagine married life–cuddle times, going through pregnancy, facing my fears of the future–if it’s other than you.

Thank you Hubby from the littlest to the biggest things. From massaging my aching back, unplugging the hairdyer just because it’s difficult for me, fixing my Snug-a-Hug for me, slicing the papaya, patience when I’m emotional and matampuhin and irrational, for washing the dishes (which should be my chore), and a lot lot lot more trivial things you do everyday but matters to me the most. Thank you for loving me way way beyond I have imagined or have prayed for.

Thank you Hubby for the kind of life you have been providing for me and Johan, for this love that you are showing everyday. Thank you for making sure we are ok, for always prioritizing us next to God, and for protecting us by constantly praying for us.

Sometimes when you sleep, I hold your hand and look at you and I just get overwhelmed with your love (even while you sleep–and snore! 🙂 ).

I am more excited in the coming days, to see your father-son moments with Johan, and to spend a lifetime of cuddling and dates with you.

I love you forever Hubby ko. <3

Jpeg