Johan

Johan’s Birth Story

This story was written last February 24, 2023 almost 6 years ago and yet I still feel the overwhelming joy when you came into our lives. It will be remembered how amazing and strong your mommy was. I thank God for everything until this day.

Hubby: Morning of May 6th, we went for the weekly Obstetrician Gynecologist check up. Wifey was still at 2cm and no signs of labor, but the doctor advised us to take primrose to induce the labor naturally. We went to SM Aura for wifey to walk and allow gravity to do the pushing. We still returned home that day while everyone was looking forward to the great news.

Wifey: Dra. Karen also suggested that I go up and down the MAB stairs (clinic area) to help with the gravity pull. After several rounds, Jaycee and I got bored and decided to walk around SM Aura instead.

Wifey: We were praying hard too. Dra told me that I cannot go past 39 weeks as I had gestational diabetes, and with my age (36yo), it was considered high-risk pregnancy already. That was Saturday, and she gave until Monday for natural ways to induce. If primrose and exercise won’t work, she will have to induce me with meds on Monday. I was praying that we”ll have normal delivery. I am scared of CS, and I was very anxious 😬

Wifey: We decided to go home to our condo (U3306 Flair at Mandaluyong) so I can have another exrra night to rest. I was so tired, anxious of the unknown. By 3am though, I started having dysmennorhea. And the feeling of uncomfort and boatedness. Deep inside, I knew that day we’ll meet Johan. ❤️ Mixed feelings though, because I fear the pain of childbirth. Di ko sure kung kaya ko, as I have low pain tolerance.

Hubby: Next day, May 7th around 10am, we prepared ourselves to go to St. Luke Medical Center Global City. We went directly to Ob Gyne Complex at the 3rd floor. We were admitted at 11am in the Labor Room. I bought lunch at the 5th Floor canteen (which we should have brought instead).

Wifey: At this point, I started to realize how I dread the IE! 😭 It was really painful! Looking back, I’d always say that delivering a child is losing my kahihiyan. Imagine a handful of interns, zooming in down there with one of them poking me to check my cervix.😱😨😱😨 And this was done EVERY HOUR. Every time I see them coming, I would cringe. Ugh, I HATE IE! But there’s no other way, so embarrassment + discomfort + pain had no place just to deliver my Johan safely.

Hubby: In the afternoon, wifey was medically induced. Contractions and pain started around 1pm. I can’t explain how painful it is for my wife as the labor cycle went on.

Wifey: We thought I was ok, so Hubby went down to buy our lunch while I settled in the Labor Room. When he was out, Dra called and told me that she will give me something to induce already via my IV line. I said ok, thinking it will still take a while. But no, just around 5minutes after it was injected, major contractions kicked in. It was so so painful. Everything I learned in birth class like breathing was forgotten. I called Hubby to hurry back because I was in so much pain. I think my fear doubled the pain.

Wifey: Hubby returned and also started to stick my affirmation cards (bible verses) in the walls of the Labor Room. I tried to eat but at some point, I vomitted because of the contraction pains. The ancipation of the next contraction is so bad that I would panic when I see in the monitor screen the upcoming contraction. I cant imagine how I will go through the rest of the labor with that kind of pain.

Wifey: Johan’s heartbeat was also being monitored, so contratry to my birthplan, I was strapped and cannot walk around. The nurse would always come in to tell me I should not sit, because the monitor belt is taken out of place and they cannot see Johan’s heartbeat. But contractions were so painful that I just had to sit!

Wifey: And yes, the different internssss (plural!) would still continue with the IE periodically. Gosh.

Hubby: At around 3:30pm, she was still at 5cm and couldn’t move around to relieve the pain because she was strapped to be monitored, we decided to administer her with an epidural. She was taken out from the Labor Room to go to the Operating Room.

Wifey: Yes, I begged Hubby for the epidural. Huhu, thank you for not insisting to stick to our birthplan (no medications birth sana ang plan).

Wifey: It was scary when I was wheeled in the OR. Everything was so bright with lights, and I was transferred to the operating table (very narrow cold metal table). After prepping me, I was asked to curl so that the anes can locate my spine. It was another scary moment. I have nothing but Johan with me and I was just talked to God to relieve my fears. I saud, bahala na Siya sa amin ni Johan. After the epi injection, it was instant relief! Hay, thank you Lord. I cannot feel anymore the contractions.

Hubby: Coming from operating room, she was relaxed so I already knew that the epidural already took effect. She was able to take a nap.

Wifey: I cannot feel the IEs anymore, hay TYL talaga! The epidural would wear off after sometime, and I would request for a another shot through the existing IV line in my spine.

Hubby: At around 5pm, her water bag was manually popped with long big needle to labor to be faster. It was already 7pm and the epidural already worn off and the pain started to be felt again. Few minutes before 8pm, she was taken to delivery room. I packed our stuff and prepared myself to be called and get dressed to scrubs. I was praying in circles inside the labor room, while removing those bible passages I’ve posted around the room.

Wifey: According to Hubby, my water bag was popped with a hook-like stuff. I was amazed how much the water is— it filled the big basin that the nurses were holding. Dra intructed this since I am almost ready to give birth based on my cervix IEs (dilation and effacement).

Wifey: Finally, I was checked and they said 8cm dilation. I remember seeing the nurses and interns get on their feet to call Dra., and with her instructions I was prepped to be brought to the OR. I cannot remember where Hubby was.

Wifey: Everything happened fast from then on. I remember I was begging for another epidural shot, but they said no because I need to feel the contractions to be able to push. It was so, so painful again. Every contraction I would just think it brings me closer to seeing Johan.

Wifey: Len was with Granpa Jun and Grandma Ting at Flair condo at this time. She recalls later on how they prayed the rosary unceasingly as soon as Jaycee texted them that I will be brought tonthe deluvery room. They are my number 1 prayer warriors 😍

Wifey: At the OR, I saw Dra Karen giving instructions here and there. I was transferred at the operating table again. The anes was giving me encouragement (nope, not epidural). I was hooked with oxygen, and other monitoring devices. It was overwhelming.

Wifey: I also remember Dra Karen looking for Jaycee because it was time for me to push. When Jaycee came in (dressed in scrubs), he stayed by me as I pushed. Dra Karen said I did a good job, and Im very good in pushing. She said she can see Johan’s head, but his head is going back up. Then they saw his cord coil, and I was really worried that we’ll end up in CS 😩

Wifey: Dra Karen assured me that she will do her best to keep Johan safe (his heartbeat went down when I pushed, because of his cord coil on his neck). On my second contraction, they asked me to push hard again ( this time I had poop with it, and the nurse assistant was asked to put it away..sorry yucky). I also remember a couple of assistant pushing ON TOP of my belly to help Johan go down (literally nakadagan sila sa akin sa tummy, grabe haha)

Wifey: Finally on the third push, I gave my best. I felt something big came out of me. My JOHAN WAS OUT 😍

Hubby: At 8:19pm, Johan cries out to the world. I was overwhelmed on what to do.

Hello, Johan!

Wifey: I cannot describe how it felt when I saw Johan. I was amazed that he was just in my belly minutes ago, and now he is here with us. He is a miracle, a gift from God. I cannot thank God enough for making me your Nanay. He was crying loud, and was placed on top of my for Unang Yakap. I was at loss for words. This tiny baby is now with mommy and daddy in the outside world. My heart melted for you, baby Johan. ❤️ Dra Karen also showed his balat.

Wifey: They started stitching my tear after the placenta was delivered out. Hubby also cut the cord, after which vials of blood were secured for stem cell cord blood banking.

Wifey: Johan was taken from me so they could clean him up, take his Apgar score, weigh. Hubby was with Johan at this time.

Our first family picture
Mandatory father and son shot at SLMC

Hubby: After wifey and baby Johan was transferred to recovery room, I need to get our room where to stay for a couple of days for monitoring. I headed to admission and got our room at 10pm. It was a deluxe room. Thanks to Macquarie’s benefits.

Hubby: Being tired, I slept and woke by the call from the intercom in the our room informing me that wifey needs to take food before she can take medicine. It was already 12 midnight and I scrambled where to buy food. I bought fried chicken meal at McDonald’s outside the hospital and brought it to the nurse. I waited for my wife and son to come out from recovery room and accompany them to the room.

Wifey: At the recovery room, Johan was so malikot 😍 He was in a warmer (newborn bed) beside my bed and the nurse would say his cries filled the entire floor 😅 The nurse said she couldnt contact Hubby in the room. He needs to buy food for me before I could take the pain meds. Up to now, I would still sumbat why he slept (haha) while I was already in pain waiting for my dinner. Finally, after around an hour he was back with my food and we were cleared to go in the normal room, yey!

Hubby: I was a long day, but it was just the beginning of our journey as parents to Johan.

Welcome to the outside world Johan. We love you! ❤️❤️❤️

Taking a nap
My lovely wife with the cute bundle of joy
Johan

31 Weeks

Yesterday marked Baby Johan’s 31st week. With this milestone are just praises and gratefulness to our God who continues to bless and protect our baby in my womb.

And as I start the work week, I just have to share the Word for today <3

Luke 1:13 – ‘The angel said to him… “your prayer has been heard”.’

Zechariah must have been praying to have a child for decades and had probably long since given up praying that particular prayer. It’s encouraging that God does hear even if he doesn’t seem to answer. God’s timing was perfect for John’s arrival in the world. We don’t always see the big picture.

God’s love is the best. <3

Johan

Spotting and Worrying

We were attending Chiqui Brosas’ Birth Classes for the whole month of Feb (I’ll post about this separately), and last Sunday was supposedly our last class. We are actually looking forward to it because the topics that session are post-partum and newborn care. I even “organized” the ordering of one of the food deliveries for our potluck.

That morning though, when we are about to prepare to go to the class, I have “blood red” spotting after I went to the restroom. I immediately panicked, but calmly showed it to Hubby (so he will not panic as well!). We were both not saying aloud anything, but deep inside we KNOW the different possibilities. We just agreed that I inform my OB via Viber and ask what to do. I guess the downside of knowing a lot is that we also know a lot more reasons to worry.

OB advised to immediately go to the hospital and have it checked. To get my mind off worry for a while, I first arranged the changes in the food delivery for our class and informed them that we won’t be able to join that day.

And yes, we were praying above all that Johan is fine.

When we arrived at the OB Complex of St. Luke’s BGC, I was immediately attended to. A fetal monitor was attached to me to monitor baby’s heartbeat as well as my contractions. I was also asked to pee for urinalysis. They also called my OB, and was checked by the resident doctor.

After couple of hours observation, we were relieved to know that everything is fine. The IE also indicated that my cervix is not dilated. Looks like an infection in the urinary tract.

After a while, we were discharged but has to go through medication for the infection. All is well now for me and baby.

It was actually a scare for me. As much as we wanted to see him (soon), baby can’t go out yet at 29 weeks.

While attached to the fetal monitor (and I cant move because it would be interprested as contraction), I asked God to talk to me. I checked my phone, and of course He did. The daily bible passage feed in my phone is exactly the bible verse posted here in this blog and my favorite for my pregnancy with Johan.

Psalm 139:13-16

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Next time there’s a temptation to worry, I should remind myself that God is control and Johan is God’s baby first and foremost.

Baby Johan is most secure in His love. 🙂

Daddy's Corner · Johan

Daddy’s Song: When I Pray for You

Dearest Baby Johan,

This morning, your Daddy is a bit emotional about something (yes, he is more ma-emo than Mommy, fyi). He came across a song, and this is a song for you, Baby. Because we know you always feel the love especially when we are praying for you.

We are already looking forward to see you. For the meantime, enjoy your time there. Daddy can’t wait to talk to you exclusively! But for now, you and I have exclusive quality time (sorry for the Cloud trainings you attended with me–too early for you but Mommy needs to learn it).

For now, Daddy can’t talk to you without me knowing everything he whispers to you! 🙂

<3

“When I Pray For You”

I talk to God about you
And I ain’t even met you yet
Everybody’s waitin’ on you here
I can’t wait to feel your heart beat
When I lay you on my chest

I’m already holding back my tears
I wanna be the dad that my dad was
I hope that I don’t mess this whole thing up

I pray you love like your momma
And you forgive just like she does
And when this life knocks you down
I hope you get down on your knees
Cause that’s what I do, that’s what I do
When I pray for you
Oh, and I pray for you

I know you’re gonna grow up some day
But don’t forget to take your time
And take the time to call back home

It ain’t always gonna be easy
It ain’t always gonna be fair
I know you ain’t always gonna need me
But I promise that I’ll always be there

I pray you love like your momma
And you forgive just like she does
And when this life knocks you down
I hope you get down on your knees
Cause that’s what I do, that’s what I do
When I pray for you
Oh, and I pray for you

I talk to God about you
When everything around me breaks
I look up and hear him say

Love like your momma
And forgive just like she does
And when this life knocks you down
I hope you get down on your knees
Cause that’s what I do, that’s what I do
When I pray for you
When I pray for you
When I pray for you

Flight2J4816 · Johan@0

Valentine’s Day 2017

Dearest Baby Johan,

This year’s Valentines Day is a lot more special than any of the ones I ever had, because:

1. This is your Daddy and Mommy’s first Valentine’s as married couple, and your Daddy is still sweet enough to bring home roses (and KFC dinner) for me;

2. And most of all, because I have 2 hearts now beating inside me–mine and that little amazing heart of yours.

Happy Love Day, my Baby! I know your heart is created after God’s own heart, and every heartbeat we hear from the outside is His love echoing through you. The love is just overflowing! <3

 

Johan@0

Baby’s Gestational Age

So recently, my baby belly has been showing up and people are starting to hesitantly ask me whether I am just gaining weight (a.k.a getting fat), or it’s a baby in there =)) As I am not fond of maternity clothes (yet!), my baby belly is proudly showing in my pre-pregnancy clothes, so I’d give them a smile and say yes with anticipation of the next question of “what month are you in?”, I’d offer the answer before the follow-up question.

Actually, I did not figure right away how to know “how many months” baby is in (medically known as baby’s gestational age ), because the due date is computed in 40wks. This is not a straight 9months times 4weeks. So I usually answer in weeks, just to be sure.

So I searched in books and online articles, and here’s the gestational age of Baby Jam week after week.

Today, we are in my 2nd trimester, 5th month, 19th week. On Christmas day, I’d be exactly half-way of my pregnancy on 😀

baby-jam-pregnancy-age

 

Devo · Johan@0

Most Selfless Prayer

[A Christmas-y thought this season.]

For this is how God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. – John 3:16 NLT

For years in my entire life, I’ve prayed for countless [mostly self-gaining] prayers: salary raise, new car, fully paid condo, physical healing, losing weight, guidance on my career, and a lot more trivial things.

I did not realize that after our wedding, this time I have asked for the most selfless prayer ever: that is to conceive, and a have baby, and be a mother.

And because God is faithful (it was His promise I’ve been holding on to), He granted this prayer right away.

Suddenly, there were tons of selfless things I have to do, and most of this is to give up. I now think less of myself and more of baby for almost everything I do: no more eating of chocolates, no more coffees over cheesecakes, no more impulse buying and shopping-only-because-its-sale, less travels on a whim, and a lot more stuff within my comfort and luxury zones. From my walking to my work habits to my sleep position, all are being done thinking of our baby and how it will affect him/her.

And so it really amazes me how could Mary say “Yes” right away going through all the pregnancy challenges and giving birth in a manger, and eventually giving up that baby for a selfish world. Isn’t it the most unselfish act you could ever think of?

This thought makes my Christmas more meaningful.

Our baby is not just another blessing. It’s God’s way of giving me and Hubby THAT special privilege to experience how it is to be REALLY unselfish with love. I cannot imagine the magnitude of that love to be able to give your Son to a selfish world (us!), which Mary selflessly conceived and raised. How could you reject that love? Two thousand years ago and still this  unparalleled loving and selfless act is still celebrated and remembered today.

I hope that amidst the parties, gifts, food, sweets, and decorations, everyone finds also the personal meaning of Christmas in their lives. It’s where all the love in the world began after all.

A blessed Christmas from us and our little J! <3

Johan@0

16 Weeks: Sweets and Teeth’s Time

It is baby’s 16th week this week, and I am on my second trimester! #ThankYouJesus really for this milestone.

By now, I am already relieved of morning sickness, bloated feeling, nausea, food cravings, fatigue, and sleepiness. I felt better all of the sudden.

But of course, as my body goes on to the next phase of preggy adjustments, the past weeks have also been challenging.

First, because of the notable high sugar in my comprehensive blood tests (so expensive, btw). I was advised by my OB to look for an endoctrinologist. As my schedule did not permit me to go to St. Luke’s BGC, I went to a doctor in Makati Medical Center instead.

And so the endo advised me to go through the OGTT, which is a sugar level test usually taken by women who are around 20-25wks pregnant. So mine was advanced few weeks ahead, because I was bordering beyond normal level in the fasting blood sugar.

It was a terrible feeling, having to fast for at least 8 hours, then being required to drink 75ml of syrupy, super sweet orange flavored liquid. And I cannot eat, drink, and vomit for the next two hours, untill all the blood samples were extracted. But I made it somehow, haha.

The results of the OGTT is almost consistent with the fasting blood sugar test, so I was advised to monitor my glucose/sugar level everyday every after meal. I have to prick myself 4x a day to get blood sample! So Why do I have to go through all of this? Because being diabetic is bad for baby. According to my OB, it can cause unwanted negative effects (congenital) if left untreated.

So I’ll have to do everything to make sure baby is ok.

The minor challenges I had was the toothache and flu combo I had last week! Oh it was so terrible, that I literally cried to Hubby as I requested him to buy ice to numb the toothache. That is in between major headache and sneezing due to my flu. As I cannot take any pain relievers, I have to endure everything with only water, including washing down the flu with lemon juice only. When we went to see the dentist the next day, she told me that it is common for pregnant women to have weaker gums and teeth, and anything not ok before I got pregnant will also be aggravated. I am very thankful she knows what to do, as I cannot also have major teeth fix like root canal while pregnant. Next week, I’ll have to go back to check the rest of my teeth.

On the bright side, it was my OB appointment yesterday. We heard again baby’s fast heartbeat <3 And I was told that 1-2wks from now, I will start to feel baby moving in my tummy. I am so looking forward to that!

As to baby’s gender, the comprehensive ultrasound will be done on the first week of January. Both Hubby and I are excited to know if Baby Jam is a boy or girl 😀 We are praying for a healthy baby, so any gender is great! It’s God’s plan, so He gets to decide the best for it <3